September 6, 2016

I have so much blood
when I wake up
it rumbles under my ears

stampede of blazing horse rabies
barreling toward my threshold.
Put your head to my plunging chest

if you still don’t believe
they are constantly

through my hiding spots
they find me
breathing too loud.

I have been pulled out by the ankles.
I have been strung up by the brains.
In these bones

it is my understanding
whatever suffering is left of me when I die
will translate and travel with me.

On days like today
it’s the only reason
I stay here.

When I go
I do not want to take this beast with me.
Not one more step.
–Excerpt from upcoming
Missoula Got Ugly
video recorded at Sint Nicolaaskapel
with Amy León, Bastaard Platen and NNfilm